i miss you darn much

i miss your phone calls

i miss your voice

pls come back home sooner :'(

i miss you

the hardest thing i've ever done is keep believing

there's someone in this crazy wold for me

the way that people come and go through temporary lives

my chance could come and i might never know

i used to say "no promises, let's keep it simple"

but freedom only helps you say goodbye

it took a while for me to learn that nothing comes for free

the price i paid is high enough for me

i know i need to be in love

i know i've wasted too much time

i know i ask perfection of a quite imperfect world

and fool enough to think that's what i'll find

so here i am with pockets full of good intentions

but none of them wil comfort me tonight

i'm wide awake at 4 a.m without a friend in sight

i'm hanging on a hope but i'm all right

:)

should i ask the stars?

do i deserve to expect your love?

living life

you can't know those types of things.

you can only trust what you feel in your heart

and take a blind leap of faith.

that’s what lifes about.

you know, we’re not put on this earth to live perfect lives,

where we never get hurt or we never make mistakes.

we’re put here to hurl ourselves headfirst into this crazy world,

and the bruises and scrapes we get along the way,

they just mean youre living life.

-as told by ginger♥

apple tree

girls, are like apples on trees

the best ones are at the top of the tree.

the boys don't want to reach for the good ones

because they are afraid to falling and getting hurt.

instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground,

that aren't as good, but easy.

so the apples at the top think something is wrong with them,

when in reality, they're amazing.

they just have to wait for the right boy to come along,

the one who's brave enough to climb

all the way to the top of the tree.

:)

there's a somebody, i'm longin' to see

i hope that he, turns out to be

someone who'll watch over me

i'm a little lamb, who's lost in the wood

i know i could always be good

to one who'll watch over me

he may not be the man some

girls think of as handsome

to my heart, he carries the key

wont you tell him please to put on some speed

follow my lead, oh, how i need

someone to watch over me

hahaha

hmm

i'm still not sure about this. but i just can't help it. can't resist, it's just so tempting D: and now it's affecting me. what should i do? i'm afraid to let it grow, but i'm helpless. now it's like a habit to me, something about you is so addictive, and i can't get enough of it. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. everything you do seems so important to me, i want to know more and more each day. this curiosity which i can't handle it, annoyed me everyday. but i'm afraid too much. i think too much. i'm not even sure about myself. this feeling, which i hadn't felt since. i'm afraid of love, obviously. afraid to get hurt again, too fragile. i shouldn't be so coward like this. i know, i'll try.

at least out loud, i wont say i'm in love~

a little bit?

i was kinda hesitant to tell you

should i let you know?

i was never really like this before

need i say more?

or maybe i'm confused when you are near me

i don't know what to do or i should be

there's only one thing in my mind

that's you and me

i'm a little bit of crazy

i'm a little bit of a fool

i'm a little bit of lonely

i'm a little bit of all

oh, i need a cure

just a little bit of you

and i will fall..

haha

the more i see you

the more i want you

somehow this feeling

just grows and grows

with every sigh i become more mad about you

more lost without you

and so it goes

can you imagine

how much i'll love you

the more i see you

as years go by?

i know the only one for me can only be you

my arms wont free you

my ♥ wont try.

i'm not sure about this, but i love this kind of feeling♥

a gap

why its so hard to make you understand? i'm tired. it feels like you and me are frm different planets. so you can't understand what i said.

what is this?

i don't know exactly what is this, but i'm pretty sure it's growing everyday. and i don't even know why, it happened just like that, don't know when and how but it just happened. i feel pretty weird and freaky. is it me the only one who feel this? am i the only person? i can't stay like this everyday. wanting to talk with you about the whole crazy world, but unfortunately i just keep waiting for you to say 'hi'. i didn't expect to be like this, but why i feel butterflies? obviously, we haven't met yet. but why it keeps pounding and pounding everyday and ready to explode? and when we talk, its like unstoppable, weird, but i like it. you always succeed to put a grin on my soggy day. well maybe i was expecting waay too faaaaaar, and i know i'll fall pretty hard sooner or later. i'd keep it for myself, and don't let its roots grow too strong, until i'm sure that it'll grow to be a beautiful one. no i'm not in love. what is love anyway?

i'm in love i guess. wierd one.

blue afternoon

wondering why can't i understand you, even a tiny bit.

last frm me to you

yea you!! why in such, you did that? just go go away and live your own selfish shit life!!!! do you even ever THINK about others? no i guess. you think of yourself. do you even know that you HURT many ppl with your shit such an ass behavior? geez man, you should really living your own suck life somewhere out of the earth. you shouldn't be called as human, didn't your mind working? what about your conscience? big no. you just used your instinct just like animals. you'll never have a true friend i guess. just because your handsome, fun to talk with, and clever and whatever, doesn't mean that you can act whatever you want. logicly, you know exactly what is going on with your own friend (since jrhigh), even he's your classmate now. look, your charming-ness is wearing off. dude!! he's acting like you know lah, but you you suddenly do something that really low. i know that the policy its right and what you did its not wrong, but cmon la don't pretend that you don't know. almost everybody can see, and realize. such an friggin scum. you are so unbelievably over the limit man. real topnotch scum.

i apologize for the bad words i use,

this is the last post about 'you know who', :)

xx

unpredictable

woohoo now he is my classmate. why when we already separated we have to spend our school times together?. hahaha i didn't care that much too, no feelings remains, normally i think we're friends. enemy? which one didn't care. for now on, i focus my mind on education, well i'd change something for my own good eh? hehehe. i know God has some big happy plans for me, that's why life is unpredictable :3 xx

unyil, reminds me of someone. i guess.

otoke?

don't know why, suddenly it hurts. i know this is sounds pretty ridiculous but the truth is i miss you. is that wrong?. losing someone its just like forcing us to let that someone go away. this is stupid. i feel stupid. 바보 바보 바보 바보

pretending to be strong, when she knows she's suffering. pathetic.

huh

why am i hesitated? enjoy life braw. xx

P.S can't wait to see my new classmates hahaha

ipsocial

ipa its a mistake :(

P.S. feb, den, pabos kepisah di 3 jurusan berbeda. sorry ya, i didn't do my best wkt kls 10, mkny ga bisa brg di ipa.

I.P.A

lemme introduce you to : IPA (Ilmu Pengetahuan ASEEKK!). yes i did it. my score? it was a ok. not so good, not makin me proud, but i am thankful :D thanks to God for everything. a new beginning, with a whole new spirits. no lazzeeeeyness starting from now (?). congrats to everyone ;) even if you failed, it doesn't mean your whole life end. God has a new plan good one for you, believe in miracles :D its hard to say this, farewell xc :( i'll miss you a lot. our cheerful class, unforgetable moments, and we have stars in our class Justian Adityatama, Radea, Aga, Evan, Ervan, Sarah, Jennifer, Cindy, Danish, Frans, Grace, Ivan, Feby and a lot more. talented, humorous, spontaneous, hilarious, witty, creative, you find it all in xc ;). a wonderful highschool times we had. farewell :) even if we're walking in separate ways, we'll have the same spirits in our hearts :*

forever,

XCopo

XCantik

XCaem

XCerewet

XCool

XCakep

XC... :')

xx

you and i will never be as one. makantuhjanjipantatlu.

super free

I'M FREE!!! bye exams, bye boyfriend

he dumped me by a txt messg. shit man, i was planning to talk to him first, but i admit it i don't have the guts. so yeah, goodbye old lover. maybe we're not meant to be at the first place. remember when you said it? whn you said that we are not match? yes i think it was a truth. an ugly one. iloveyou doesn't mean a thing for me if you act like that scum. well whatevs, now we're going with our own ways. different ways. cheers ;)

the king of the ass will always be the king of the ass. but wont ever be the king of my heart.

feels like

stupidly helpless. God please lead me to the right way, i'm lost.

where's your fuckin promises? don't you see? AM I HAPPY RIGHT NOW? AM I? i knew it. if i listen to my deepest heart, it wouldn't be like this.

thoughts

its been a while since march, and its already may!! few more weeks to final exams :S oh dear, whatever it is i'll stay enjoy, i want to keep my adolescences AS HAPPY AS POSSIBLE hahahaha :D

prove it to me.

paper, pen

first of all, happy easter ppl ;). its april already, phew so fast ya? soon i'll be leaving grade 10 and will continue in science major (hopefully) hahahaha. i jst don't get it, why are you acting like that? oh cmon i'm so dang tired. whatever i don't really care about it, just enjoy enjoy enjoy, wont make it hard and complicated for myself just enjoy! hahahaha. for me, life is like a paper and a pen. you never can't erase what have written, even with a tip-ex it will have mark on it. the paper its limited, means that life is short. its depends on you, what are you going to write or draw, will you make it wonderful or else. me? i'll make it as good as possible, so when ppl read or see it, it'll make their sorrow fade away!! hahaha. so get ready with your pens ppl, wht will you going to draw/write? :3 xx

whatever happens, i'll still enjoy it!

lately

march almost over, in minutes by now haha, so i learnt many things. time wouldn't wait for us, it will keep going on without waiting. so i learn that today will never be the same as yesterday or tomorrow. yes i know everything that i did, it'll never be the same as yesterday. so fullfill your life with good things ;) because time wont wait. we don't want to waste our life right? wo yeah enjoy life, make your life as happy as possible :D sleepy, adieu! xx

your promise, i'll keep that♥

can you tell?

awkward situation, i hate it. and she? she stuck in that position for a longggg time. like you don't know how to move at all. or how to talk. its been a while since she doesn't feel that butterflies again. oh butterflies, its worse than you think, having a butterflies in your stomach for hours! imagine how suffering is that? hahaha. well its because she's so dang nervous, its over months since she get this close OOH i mean dating. its a bit weird though, she can't hold on to her trembling legs. also i think they both know that they're very nervous at first. walk walk to the field of grass and when they're walking, their hands touch each other, felt like a bit weird. then after a long while talking and laughing, i don't know too who started but they're holding hands alright. this feeling of secure, long time no feel it. and after they're holding hands, everything its like they used to do. past is behind them, they feel like a lot more brand new but like they already knew for a long time. i can tell it from their gestures, yes they both are in love. awkward turns into affection. pounding hearts, trembling hands and legs, everything it seems so great. in the end she was just wondering, 'are we in loveagain?'. those feeling of love, its a part of a life! hahahaha for those who are in love, don't evr waste your time with the one you love! and just have fun, enjoy it every second haha :) oh ya for those who soon will have uan uas, good luck !! Gbu :D adieu!! xx

when you know who ♥

never knew

we'll never know what God plans right? just so you know that king-of-the-ass (haha sorry) won her heart back (omg ew never thought i'll write this poetic-kind-a-thing), this is a karma. so ppl ppl, karma laws is working here!!. she was shock omg, she doesn't know how to answer this, its between a heart, and a dignity. she was very confuse, which one should she pick? but everybody deserve to have their last chance right? so in the end of struggling with those confusion she pick her heart even when she knew that there's a risk of every choices. but she will believe that God will always there to help whenever, wherever. this is her choice, and she knows what best for her. this shouldn't be written lalala :P

happy hari raya nyepi everyone :)

have a nice day ppl ;)

adieu! xx

when you know she was a girl with a name which means flower

march

march march, so many birthdays :) hahaha and surprises of course (NGIKIKIKIK). first of all i wanna say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!

have a blast one!! gbu :)

Marissa Leviani, Shasha Alamsyah, Gregorius Danish Armand (our 바보) xD

Tuesday (is it? or monday i forgot) we planned a silly surprise for our 바보 (pabo) wkwk. me feby and danish, we called ourselfs the pabos kkkk. we're quite close :) and so me and feby planned to give him a surprise haha. we're acting like we're fighting because feby was so nyolot and ga niat when i ask her about danish's surprise plan (that's what i told pabo :P) and fortunately HE BELIEVE IT (yey). he was really upset and very sad, even he said ' tir, i don't need a surprise. if you and feby make up, it'll be enough for me :) ' omg i was so speechless man!! he was that care!! but unfortunately we still playing our act xP even when its his birthday. and he said that ' it was he worst birthday ever, the one of the reasons is because of feby and i fighting ' omg man, and he said ' just leave me alone ' MANN. i really kind a regret it, because i made someone's special day ruined. but YIPPEEEEE YEY, today with a pounding hearts, we surprised him !!! yeah well to me he didn't look surprised, but i know i know deep down in his heart he was really KAGET siok !! hahaha. yeah man ! big thanks to : sesil (his gf kkk~)

to 바보: you're a 16th years old boy now and had a girlfriend already (cie) so be a man ! don't be such a coward or those jerkssssssss (y'knw what i mean?) ahaha. and dnt forgot enjoy your teen agee dudee !! makin sopan sm ortu, ah pokokny yg bagus2 deh hahahaha :P so its not the worst birthday ever right? HAHAHA keep our friendship long last forever ya with feby too 3 of us like the musketeer !! kkkkkkkk~

hahahahahahaha all hail the pabos ! ' i want to ride my bicycle ' kk.

au revoir! xx

we missed your flare nose with your rocker-style haha

hey its march!

bonjour! i'm fine thankyou :) march already ! gosh assignments assignments deadline is on march :( man i've to get start working on it. nothing really happen though, but the goodnews i got new phone, well its second handed from my aunt :D i bought it from her hehehe xD thanks aunty !! :D wuwuwu 3 more days to jjf ! hihi can't wait x3 it'll be fun !! hahaha oyeah fortunately, today my physics test is postpone! because the teacher is sick so she's absent ;( get well soon b.winarni :) so we'll have it on friday huahua xD man don't knw wht to blog. haahaha hope you guys enjoy your weekdays :D adieu! xx

king of the ass

DON'T YOU KNOW, WHO YOU'RE PLAYING WITH? such a scumbag, lower than any creature in this world. don't ever think that i'm lulled by your JUNK FLIRT, obviously, it such a joke for me, unfortunately its not making me laugh, its making me poop. get lost jackass, try to find somebody else to play with. take your friend and play somewhere else, shit! you're such a waste. you're not the only man in the world, HELL-NO. so don't act like one!!! i'm so freaking sick of you. shouldn't write this haha sorry for those badwords :( have a great day ppl ;) xx

i know the answer

here it goes, remember the last post? about fishy? yeah i got it. you are starving, but if that fish can kill you, and make you more suffering, mannnn are you crazy? making yourself ill and hurt? that's one insanity dudee lol, yeah just ignore it don't pull your rod, ignore it even the fish looks tasty, IGNORE IT. do i have to say it again? IGNORE IT, IGNORE, IGNORE! hahahahahahahahahaha. y'knw wht? even though heart is more important than pride, but if its because you stand up for your heart, then you'll loose your pride and it ends by another heartache, mannn i don't think i'll take that way. hahaha i don't deserve to be treated like that (AGAIN). and yeah we are humans right? we are smarter than donkeys so we don't fall on the same hole twice!! SO YEAH Addio vecchio amante! HAHAHA. xx

you are freaking flirty and i'm sick of it, seeking for the new one here :P

P.S i'm a hot guy seeker LMAO i was joking hahahaaa

fishyyy

somewhere at the sea, in the condition that you haven't got any food and the only way to get food its to fish, and when you are starving, there's a fish come near to your bait and wanted itself to get caught. will you pull up your hook, or just ignore it? when you know some ppl said that this kind of fish isn't very tasty and it can makes you ill in someway but they never taste it or catch one too. remember again your stomach is growling hahahahaha. what'll you do? tell me the answer, i was just wondering hehehe :P au revoir! xx

this isn't my plan. don't hve any idea how to face it lol.

14th february♥

HAPPY VALENTINE & GONG XI FAT COI EVERYONE !!

spread your love to everyone !! don't forget to ask for angpao hahaha i was joking :P. so this Sunday big events got together, red red everywhere, chocolates, and chinese writing, ooh ad tiger everywhere (its a tiger year) haha. but i just not that exited about it even i'm chinese, hahaha. it just feel like an ordinary sunday (?). is it because of i can't celebrate valentines day without a lover? no that's not it, but yea its one of the reason why (huehehek). my heart? it beats like normal duh. oh you mean my other ' heart ' ? haha what its empty hahaha, going to wait someone to fill it HAHAHAHAHA well take it easy peasy, i mean it'll come by itself right? hehehee ♥ . everything have its own positive and negative hahaha (just like someone always says to me). i didn't expect for a lot angpaos too, hahaha (really its different from last year chinese new year), maybe it because i have a trigonometry test tomorrow? haha yeaa a bit. but mostly i .. lalalalala whatever hahaha. wanna eat a homemade sunday on sunday noon and play fishafish! woohooo :9 fish a fish its on facebook, try here its fun!! :D hahahahaaa, see yaa ;) xx

have a great sunday, valentines day♥, chinese new year celebration day ! :):):)

february

its february already, 3days to valentine and chinese new year! but i'm not that exited. just about 2months ago, i met opa (my grandma's bro) he told me about his grandson at bandung that really love magic tricks and soccer. remember when he watched soccer at the tv until he fell asleep that that chair, and when he took a picture of my lil sist. it felt it just like yesterday, but now he's already with God. he got this disease and get hospitalized. i haven't see him again after last 2months. man, he's seems really good and healthy in last december but who ever knows God plans?. yesterday God called my senior on grade 11 too, she was fighting super triple very good against her disease, but God knows the best, and i know He will take care of her. i felt like time went so fast, like i was missing something, and don't know anything bout it, till i heard they already gone. everything have their own limit, we don't know about our limit, but we know He always have the wonderful plans for His sons and daughters. so try to do the best for everyone, before we reach the limit. and try to be a good to everyone, before they gone away :') really valuable lesson to learn. remember to respect everyone esspecially people that older from us (parents, teacher, grandparents, uncle, aunt, dll) EVERYONE!!

rest in peace opa maks,

rest in peace kak vania,

be happy there :').

may God give them strength and sukacita, pengharapan for those who grieve :)

Gbu, xx

you can called it unfortunate

this is called an-so-oh-unlucky-day. today i was planning to go to oline's new house blessing, so then my mom said i'd brought my phone to school to tell her so she wont worry. there i was arrive at school, a bit late, and ooh there's no electricity because the lightning struck our electric relay station (gardu listrik) but luckily the water went on :) as the story goes (hehe) some teacher as we know that he was the sweeping teacher (sir rolly) and something felt didn't good. yep sweeping for things that have nothing to do with schools. oh man i was really shock -_____- yep they confiscated my phone. ohhhhhhhh no phone till june, only got the simcard, memory card, and the battery. MAN HOW CAN YOU LIVE WITHOUT A PHONE? (HAHAHA i was joking) hahahha. oh ya they almost confiscated my flashdisk, luckily not HAHA.some of my friends got confiscated too, like their headphone, cellphone, magazines (puhlease?), novels (DUH?), cd(s), psp and so on. erghhhhh, but it'd be the right chance to ask dad for a new phone? hahaahahaha but ya what i want it cost a bit too high for my parents, huhuhuhu. doesn't matter to me hoho. so i realized even the teachers have that kind a senior-junior thing yknow? ergh i'm a bit annoyed ya with their attitude. if you're a senior, higher, and know better, you'd be a GOOD example, act nice, aren't you have a heart? you started from the 0 too, you'd act better than that. and what's wrong with act like that? puhlease -.- oooh and anw congratulation for olineb with her new house ! Gbu :) learnt my lesson today, follow the regulation or else you get sucked haha. ugh yea wish mom and dad would buy me that phone ehehehehe. have a nice weekend!!! (how could you have a nice weekend without any phone? lmao nevermind.) adieu!, xx :)

i miss my old bangs, and feby utari :)

things

allô! ahhh honey star and milk are very tasty for an afternoon snack :9 i just ate that, because i was hungry lol, but ramen is good also (though its not healthy) hehehee. don't you feel that these days skies turn to dark faster than usual? i just got home like 5p.m (i wasn't see the clock) then i was thinking for a jog in 15mnts just for relax my muscles and my mind, but i got thought that it was already 6p.m because can't see the sun, i thought it was already set. hm maybe it because the weather is cloudy, so that's why aaahaha xD. school? hm school was fine. no more moans about assignments and homework (iguess) maybe it because i'm getting used to it (DUHH -_-) hahahahaha. uuh just found another dead mouse, huahahaha (lagian sih macem2 ckck) hahaha. mom has no mercy to a mouse, she just give a poison and food. really really cruel, that poison make the mouse blind slowly, so it'll search sunlight to see. and because it stay too long in the sunlight it'll die. ew really inhuman right? the poison called dora wkwkwkwkwk. poor mouse ckck. so don't even try to be a mouse, lol (what the heck am i saying? ckck). must shower now wkwk, always enjoy your life dudeeee, you wont regret it hahahaaa! au revoir! xx

'hoping that what i just heard about you it was true, was it?

was it true you said that?' my curiosity

:)

today i just realize, that happiness will come up if you have the thought of it :) no more pessimist, it'll ruined your day, or your whole life. dude life only once, and days go on without waiting, we can't even turn back the time. so don't waste your life just for something that worth awhile. fill it with lots of things to learn, don't forget about happiness and smile :) fill your days with a laugh/smile, one laugh/smile (and a positive thoughts) will make a big difference in your life trust me!! heehe. i know life's hard, and it wont smooth like a silk. it'll rough as the relief of the earth haha. but its the thing that made our life worth. i mean, can you imagine life's without any problems? it'll be so darn boring isn't it? hahaa. so if you got some complicated problems, be grateful then hahaha and ask God help if you can't solve it, i'm really sure He helps you :D uh i just ate ramen this time it's not as spicy as the 'spicy mushroom' or the 'kimchi flavor'. its beef blabla (forgot the name on the pack) huehehehehe, but it tasted good. oh belly you should be happy today ahaha. oooohhhhh ramen is always suits the best for my belly nyam nyam (but not the really hot spicy one khukhuk~ belly will get a tummyache wkkwwk). eww i'm sleepy now, should i get some nap? or just take a shower? whichever dehhh hahaha. adios! xx

a smile can bring a BIG difference!

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

HOW MANY SMILES ARE THEY? HAHAHAA~

simple

today, i realize. that everything is easy, if you try it hardly :) today i saw my sister learning how to write suku kata (what is that in english anw? ooh syllable haha) ba be bi bo bu, ha he hi ho hu, and so on. so in her school there's a metod that the student have to write what the teacher said (mendikte, ngerti kan?) haha. so after she finished her lesson, my mom ngediktein suku katanya and she must write the right suku kata. ba be bi bo bu, she doesn't know how to write it LOL, even it just the vocal characters (a,e,i,o,u) thats different, some people in my house already frustrated to teach her, but not my mom hahaha. oh cmon she's learning here from 0 to WAO man i realized its hard for lil kids to learn ABC to write, and read just like us. and i remember how my mom's strugle to teach me, my bro, and now my sist. a big thanks for mom :) never ever think that your mom doesn't care about you, here deep in their mind&heart she thinks of you (each one of her children), what are your likes, how to make you (all) happy, actually she just want a good talk with you, she just want to know if her children is okay, is happy, is fine. and if you have a problem just tell her, she'll listen (a mother always listen her child?). well not even mother la, father too. so people that addicted to online (um include here ! me ! haha) think of it again. which one do you pick? talking to a stranger, a friend, BY A MEDIA (maybe she or he can't keep their mouth shut). or your own parents? (that you know they will never spread out your secrets ! ;)

show some respect to your parents :D they'll happy and proud no matter what you'll be what you are :) going to get my beauty sleep now, adieu ! xx

iloveyou mom, dad, bro, sist, grandma :) saranghaeo !!

huh? oh

dor!. hahaha, this week i really felt its dang hard (super assignments, homeworks, test, popquizzes OHMYYYYY). yep i think i failed on my bahasa indonesia test, isn't it silly? my own national language gitooh, tolong deh ya gue xP. ngahahahaha, its because well i was a lil bit lazy to read the notes frm the teacher, its called macam ragam bahasa or smthing called like that haha. yaa i've learnt my lesson, regrets always come after it happens, yep? haha no more lazy, its a test dude. and we're on the secnd semester right nw, must get more good score to get into science major :D ohoho. ahh so today the conditioner + my own massage on my head did a great work to shooo away the stressed, HAAHAHA now i'm feeling much much more better yiiihaaaaaa :D. got some tips for you who get stressed, or depressed, just treated yourself with a good massage (on your head or foot or a body massage whichever you liked most haha) and a have warm shower!! :) don't forgot to listen to some songs that you liked :D (happy song dong yaa) haha and you need happythoughts, forgot those annoying gloomy sad worry thoughts, k? :). well it works on me, hope it works on you too ;) gtg nw, have to study chemistry fr tmrrw's quiz. wish me luck ppl, have a nice day don't get yourself stressed too much :D:D xx

i kind a missed my bangs, when they're down hhe :P

:S

tired, lack of energy, then sick. HA hello fever, its like the worst thing happened to me. felt like so cold, but actually your temperature isn't normal (over 37degree) eek i never ever everr want to had a fever like that anymore (whoever wants? silly). ooh, beside fever i got a sore throat, ew now its very difficult for me to swallow cause its hurt, dammit -.- happily now i've already recovered from fever (WOOOOOOOYEAAAAAAAAAH), but not from the sore throat ughhhhuhuhuu. the weather in jakarta is so unstable, in the morning its so hot, but noon, night its so cold, so dad said i have to eat more (to avoid sickness) although it's hard for me to swallow huhuhu :( ooh, i must study biology fr the test tomorrow. MUSHROOM OH MUSHROOM :S

wish me luck ;) adieu, xx

enjoy !

howdy ppl ;) back to normal life here with assignments, homeworks, pop-quizzes, tests (soon). ooh ya i'm describing a school-life. OH OH OH give me some time to relax, stop pushing us !! its been a week since school started, and we've already got pop-quizzes, homeworks, assignments, ohhhhhhhh T,T for me now its no time for playing around. so today, i talk with a friend from tbi, he's already on university semester 2 haha. and i told him about my HELL-O school life hahaha, and he laugh. he said; i'd enjoy it, because its more more moree easier than when i'm in university he said. maybe he's right, i mean now its only the beginning, beginning that have a successful ending :) (hopefully) so ya he makes me realize that now i'd enjoy my life as a highschool-girl, so it feels more easier i think :) positive thinking that's what i needed right now (forget her, forget him, forget them, forget all about my problemos, forget their trash talks, their frickin EW acts, let me enjoy my life, this is my life you can't control it. GET LOST! hahahaha) :D its sooooooooo fun to talked with him, hahahaha xD. ooh its late, hav to go to sleep, got school tomorrow :) cya , xx

HAHAHAHAHA

heeey y'all :) did i mention that you should search a gift for my birthday? HAHAHAHA kidding :P. yep its today, hip hip huraaay xDD, yes i did turn to sixteen today huahahahahaha :D (i know i know i'm older than the look ckck wkwk :P). so this year, some ppl forget that today is my birthday :( huhu. at school especially TODAY, i was really lonely huhuhuhu, feby and dance IGNORED me, how sad? HAHAHA. then, there's a note from agent #007 ?!?! (NGAHAHAHAHAHAHAK), it tells about some mission i've to accomplish (thanks for the mission guys haha), the mission is : "I CAN'T TALK TO FEBY, DANCE FOR A WHOLE DAY OR ELSE I'LL SCREW MY DAY". i was like "HAHAHAHAHA WHAT IS THIS?" and their faces looks like 'that' and ignored me. at first i was okay and trying to teased them, so i come to feby and start to talk with her (on purpose haha), she answered my question very shortly (but i knew it she couldn't resist that she want to laugh her ass off hahahh), then i started to have a conversation with dance but he just ignore me with 'that' face ckckck. when the bells are ringing its break time, and nadia is just like that too (let me tell ya she a great actor, really looked like she pissed-off) hahaha, then i was really really keseeeeeeeeeeeeeeel upset with them, the whole day i was alone (not really), my (close) friends ignoring me :(((. so as the story goes, in the end, when i finished cidea lesson, they surprisingly showed up infront of me singing happy birthday, i was shocked and surprised :"") , i was veryveryveryvery happyyyyyyyyy HAHAHAHAHAHAHA (thankyouu so muchhh, y'all really making it unordinary every year hahaha, great job guys y'all succeed this time wkwk xD). And a very very much thaaaaankssssssssssssss to my family :), without them i wouldnt be this happy hehehehehehehehe. but sadly, my brother has already went back to bandung (due to his some kind of final test at his university), he haven't say happy birthday to me yett :(. hahahaha, so today is my very first birthday without my bro ckck :( but he's coming back on saturday, i guess its fine then hahahahaha :P, ooh and for everyoneee heheeeee :

A VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH THANKYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU TO YOUU ALL HEHEHEHEHEEEEE :D

hahaha thanks for the presents, the surprise, and the good wishes, Gbu too xD

yeyeyee what happy day (not really, cause i have chemistry popquiz tmrrw buhuhuhuhuhuu) gtg now hahahahaha xDD

xx

look at the bright side, where?

its been 4 days from the new year, and its my first day of school hip hip huraaay :D hahahahaha, so everything goes back to normal, every subjects keep moving on, entering the new chapter for the second semester and guess what?, i'm the new secretary of the class(-XC) now hahahahahahaha :P. ooh ya and today there's a sweeping hair for girls and boys. and my hair, i mean my bangs, ya i knew it they'll call me out -___-, i'm afraid they'll cut it nonooooooooooooooo :( but they didn't haha thankGod, they just tell us to be more tidy (means that there's no hair on your forehead actually that's what our suster wants -.-) so yep i clip my bangs up. and for the boys i think some of them had cut by teachers, and some of them got a cut from a barber shop (my school call the person from barber shop/salloon to cut their hair) i think ckck. and just realize in 2010 i started with a bad thing, i have to be more tidy, remember that i got a C for my tidiness? i know i know -____-. ooh ya my life as a fifteen-years-old-girl soon will be over, well i'm going to sixteen soon yipeeeeee, well that's not a bad thing at all :) haha getting old on this body, thankGod i've this kind a babyface *some ppl said that* HAHAHAHA you can puke if you want xDD i was joking hahaahahahahahaaaa. yes i've learnt my lesson today, BE MORE TIDY and TRY TO LISTEN WHAT MY TEACHER SAID :D, so gtg, have some lessons to catch english lesson wkwkwk at tbi. see ya xx